queasy queasy

hello blog.

i only think of you whenever i feel emotional. like there's something stuck in between my heart and throat. hope you don't mind.

tml is a big day for a special friend. i want to give all my blessings to this special friend whom i don't see often but always appear at the right time. he's so far and yet so near. but after tml, he'll be so near and yet so far.

yes i'm feeling all queasy. queasy at the fact that things change and people move on with their life.

for now, i just want myself and time to stand still.

new set-top box

I just called up Starhub for an additional set-top box. And it costs $12 PLUS a one-time charge of $20.


Me: WHAT? I don't understand. I already have two set-top boxes at home. Why do I still have to pay for another one-time fee?

Man: Oh it's for the installation service. It's just another one-time charge.

Me: It's ANOTHER one-time charge?!

Man: It's for the transport for the technician.

Me: NO! It's okay, I don't want it anymore. It doesn't make sense.

Man: Ok we will waive it for you. It's just $12 per month.


Must I raise my voice to get my way?

kindness

Thou shalt not be mean

做好事，
存好心，
但不说好话，
也不能算是好人。

it's amazing

It has been a while.

Sometimes the words were at the tip of my fingers, waiting for me to put it in black and white. But I'll still hold them back. I don't know, maybe I was still unsure of things that happened. It took me some thinking, mulling over to find an answer. And I think I did.

One day you wake up and you know. You just know.

It's amazing how human beings work. It's amazing how one day you are so sure of one thing and the next it is just a puff of smoke. And I guess that's the beauty of how complex human beings are.

The dream

He led me up the stairs.

Every flight of stairs brought us to a room with someone inside who said hi.

It was a 3-floors house. And he was not a stranger.

We chatted and went up to the attic.

The room has 2 windows. He went out from one to open the doors of the other for me.

We stepped out of the window that leads to a huge expansive pasture.

There was a bench on the right of the grass patch.

Another woman was lying there. We walked towards her.

And sat down beside her. And talked.

It was so beautiful. So so beautiful.

And so strangely familiar.

I've come to this place before, haven't I?

Where's this place?

Changing oneself

It's scary. Some feelings seem all too familiar.
Like things hasn't changed one bit.

Maybe it's time for another approach.
Maybe it's really all in the mind. 
My mind.
 
It's time to stop being so stubborn. 
At least for now.  

shi ting thinks she should go to bed. NOW.

I've been slping later and later and later. This is unhealthy. Not good not good.

And what the hell is the world coming to? What in the world is that?!!

What's wrong with u!!!!

The head says one thing. The heart says another.

I hate this blog post.

I really need to go to bed.